Halley's Comet

Chapter 6:Halley's Comet

"Some things in life happens only once or twice if you're lucky"- Mr.JustNotGoodEnough

       This is a promise I made to my Bro a few years back. I promised him to write what I think about his love life. Due to some fortuitous events I wasn't able to deliver my promise. Before anything else let me talk about myself.haha I'm a bit of a hybrid nerd meaning I act like I'm a cool kid but I'm just a big geek deep inside. I'm really good but not great in a lot of subjects in school. Be it Math,Science,English except History!(Sucked with memorizing but I'm in Law School.haha)

       As a preschooler me and my best-friend would always go to the library, to try to find new stuffs about mother earth. We would always ask each other "Did you Know?" Of course I always lost most of the time. He was just smarter than me but In return I did learn a lot of things. Our little escapades helped me come across the origin story of The Halley's Comet. This isn't the real story but this is my version.  

Story Proper time!

       One upon a time there was this kid named "Joe". He was a simple kid. A little bit chubby and a little bit spoiled for his age. He was the eldest of Ten siblings. He was the kid who was supposed to achieve greatness. He was the kid who was being tailored to be the head of his clan someday. For a kid, little Joe understood this. He knew that he has to achieve everything his parents has set for him. Little Joe was good but he was just a little kid. His entire life planned before him. No room for mistakes. No room for failure. With all the pressure in the world Little Joe had a way to ease all of the stress. He loved to watch the stars and talked to them. Every night He would gaze upon the stars. In his own small world the stars would talk to him, The stars would always tell Little Joe; 

"Don't Worry! We Believe in you. You can achieve anything in this world as long as you believe in yourself"

       His little talk with the stars was all the push Joe needed to fulfill all the goals his parents has set for him, It was also during this time he met a star named "Halley". This star was different from the others. She never talked to anyone but in some mysterious ways little Joe felt a connection with Halley. Little Joe have met every star in the night sky but Halley was different. In a night sky filled with a million stars all Joe could see was Halley. She wasn't the brightest nor the shiniest but for little Joe She was amazing, She was perfect. It took a while for Little Joe to muster all his confidence to talk to her. As he said:

"Hello. Halley's Comet"

       He heard his mother calling him. "Joe! It's time to study!" Just before Halley could reply. Little Joe left. Little Joe was determined to accomplish all the goals his parents has set for him no matter what it cost. Little Joe never got to see Halley for a long time after that. For a little kid Joe would give up anything even his childhood just to achieve his goals. Even if without Halley the stars where always there for Joe. In his darkest moment each star was there to guide him,to protect him and to lead him to who he's supposed to be. One by one he achieved everything he has set for himself. He became a lawyer. He became a Prosecutor eventually He became a Judge. He led his Clan to greater heights. He achieve every bit of greatness He was destined to be. All the success of a thousand lifetime in his hands still he felt incomplete.

“Success is nothing without someone you love to share it with.”- Billy Dee Williams

Joe paid a steep price for his dreams. He gave up pretty much everything else just to accomplish what he had. In the end he felt he lost out on a whole lot more. As his life drifts away Joe in all indication was happy. He had the love of his family,The adoration of all the stars and the respect of the people. He was happy. He had everything any man could ever dreamed of but he was incomplete. Everyday the feeling of incompleteness grew. All the smile he had slowly faded. The Joe everybody came to love slowly changed. They felt maybe it was his age just keeping up to him but deep inside Joe knew why. Many years passed when Joe was about to retired from this practice of law He went back to the stars. 

He wanted to talk to them maybe for one last time.

"Are you still here?"

       He asked. He asked again. No one replied. A small part of him died that night. He knew that the stars who were there guide him,to protect him and to lead him to achieve his dreams was no longer with him. He understood that maybe those stars were guiding some other dreamer as they did to him. It was the sad truth. The truth that every person in our lives are destined to leave us someday once they fulfill their role. Joe's family had their own family to feed,to groom and to lead for the next generation they had no room for an old aging man Joe thought. The adoration of the people was no more once he left his post as a judge. He was all alone. Just when Joe was about to leave He saw someone passed by. An old acquaintance to say the least. It was Halley! After all these years. Witnessing Halley maybe for the last time was everything He could have needed. As He said with a smile:

"Hello again. Halley's Comet"

Halley answered;

"Do I know you?"

        Joe didn't know what to say. He was either too cold from the weather or was just tongue-tied from the sight of Halley. After what seems to be a lifetime for Joe He introduced himself. They talked the whole night. They laughed. They even gossiped about the other stars they knew. There were moments where they just enjoyed each others company in silence. Joe for the first time in his life felt complete. He worked all his life to achieve everything but deep inside He felt this moment with Halley was worth more than everything he worked for. If only he could turn back time he thought. Hours passed as they talked when Halley realized it was time to go. As she bid farewell to her new found friend She said:

"Til Next time!"

Joe smiled and said Goodbye.

-Fin-

Confession: The truth in love is We only have one chance at true love twice if were lucky. We should always bear this in mind. Whenever We feel that someone could be "the one" We should stop at nothing to make them realize just how special they are and inform them of our intentions to keep them forever. #MayForever

The Explanation

Chapter 5: The Explanation

I never watch Filipino romantic movies. 

I've always felt that they were derivative of some other romantic film. The only other Filipino film I've watched was One more chance and that was a long long time ago. Well this movies was good borderline great. The Story was really impressive. it wasn't your generic "Magkakatuluyan din sila sa huli" film. The character development was good. The acting was average (I'm a bit biased here. I hate Piolo Pascual). I just really loved the story. It was everything I needed to watch after the turmoil that is my love life.haha The story revolves around that fundamental question:When do we let go? The girl met the man of her dreams they here happy then the she started to have doubts and decides to leave him. Fast forward to the future She recieves a letter then blahblahblah. Instead of listening to me just watch it,it's awesome!

Now! to the story proper.

It's been years since my last post. A lot has changed. Im in law school! Amy? Remember her?haha She's in med school now and I'm pretty much over her  more on that in the next chapter. This chapter is for the girl that I loved since our 3rd year in High school. After our 6-year Love story I officially ended it in the worst way any guy could have done. Thru text. Before you judge! Let me explain. The truth is we may have lasted that long but it wasn't because we loved each other that much it was because I was determined to make it work. Until I realized that this wasn't love anymore, She wasn't the right person for me.

Understanding this was by far one of the hardest thing I ever did.

She was my best friend. She was my partner. She was arguably everything to me but deep inside after all we've been through I just couldn't stand her anymore. She had her flaws and I had mine. I know when you love someone that you should try to understand each others quirks and weaknesses but I just couldn't anymore. I ended it in the most selfish way possible because I knew she'd never agreed to it. I made that conscious decision to hurt he,to disappoint her,to break her heart one last time to give her the right push to forget about us completely. 

Yes, You did deserve one and I hope this is an enough explanation for what I did. I'm sorry.

"The hardest decisions in life are never easy but if we understand the importance of making these decisions it gives us a better perspective on what lies ahead"- Mr.JustNotGoodEnough

Is She just out of my league?

Chapter 4: She's out of my league..Maybe?

       Have you ever seen this movie? Pretty much the answer would be a yes. It's like been screened on HBO from time to time the past years. This movie is nothing special though. Yes it talks about something that people go through but it lacks the Reality factor to it. In our world today we are defined by our social standing. A doctor will eventually marry another doctor or any field at par with it. It sucks. Why can't we be with someone that's more than what we've achieve so far in our lives. Love conquers all as they say. If your in love with someone you should stop at nothing to get her. That's the mantra of romantic people, people who is ever so passionate with their feelings that they tend to not think clearly. Love is a feeling that can be contained, it can be controlled and can be tamed. We all aspire to find our princess and live happily ever after. We can't have that. It's absurd to think that a normal man can be with someone extraordinary. Just remember when Prince William and a commoner Kate Middletton were married in a way it's a "He's out of my league" moment except for the fact that Kate is incredibly attractive so it's a 10 and a 10. Would a Princess of England marry an oddly looking but incredibly good man? I really doubt that.

And Now to our story proper...

       After ranting about the chances of an "She's out of my league" moment earlier this is where it gets real. We all have that moment when we can say that She's out of my league but truth be told this is not always the case. Were too in love with a person that we see her as a perfect person. love blinds us to see that the one we love isn't really perfect, isn't really that beautiful and isn't really out of our league. Me and my friends normally scout for girls whenever were free. We often look at girls and compare them with one another.(Its a guy thing.) We call this act as "Bird Watching". The Idea of love blinding us and making us believe in the She's out of my league moment came from this act. We kept scouting girls and I keep telling them that "Amy"(the code name a came up with) is nothing compared to the other girls. After I kept saying this my friends were a bit furious and puzzled why I kept saying that then BOOM! It hit me like a bolt of lightning and a train come crashing through.(I'm just over-sensationalizing this. Lol) Long story short If were in-love as hard it is to be objective and use our head it's not an excuse not to. Sometimes before telling yourself you don't deserve someone because S.O.M.L. look not what makes her special but what made you feel something. 

"Our hearts doesn't fall in-love just because it wants to but because deep inside it knows it's gonna happen." - Mr.JustNotGoodEnough

You just have to work hard and earn her love!

Meeting at a Crossroads

Chapter 3: The Crossroads

       If you happen to be bored out of hell I suggest watch this movie. Not really an epic movie or what but being bored out of hell has it's desperation time right? Sooo why wrong turn? this has to be as far fetch you can be to a love story. Well simple concept though once in your life you come across a cross roads that will change your life forever. You could end up being super happy with the girl you love or you could end up being eaten by mutated cowboy people. Crossroads are the root of regrets. All of the what-ifs are stemmed from this event. "The one that got away" or the "Kung ikaw na lang sana"(If you were the one) persons in your life materializes from this event. Since were talking about crossroads lets not limit ourselves from love related crossroads. There are a lot of crossroads that we come across in our lives and half of them doesn't really even  have any connection to love. STILL Crossroads are a B*TCH. remmember that.

And Now to our Story proper...

       Yeah. A lot of us have had to choose if we still have to continue on our journey or we need to change. We all have reasons for going the other way around or staying in course. Sometimes life just tells us that it's not worth your time maybe if your lucky life will sugarcoat it for you and tell you "You'll find someone worth your <3. " It sucks trust me having to accept the fact that the journey you've been gearing up for years was never supposed to happen. You pour your heart out and you change for the better still it wasn't enough. For the first time in you life you meet someone that you fell for with just one look. You dreamed of sweeping this princess of her feet. I codenamed this girl as Amy so better of using it. A part of me wants her see this. A part me wants to tell her just how much I would have,could have,should have done to sweep her of her feet. I know with all my heart that she never going to know. 

      "All I can do is wish and pray that one  day when I get the chance at my crossroad I'll be able to choose the road that takes me farthest from her.</3"

Just before I leave you for a while just remember the secret in making decisions in crossroads is..

"Choose what makes you happy and never ever look back." -Mr.JustNotGoodEnough

Happy New year  People! Cheers!

The feeling of being Imprinted to someone

Chapter 2: The feeling

       Oooh! Twilight. As much as I want to say that its an overrated movie franchise and a book that not really that good of an literary masterpiece, Its pretty cool. We've all admire how werewolves have this special ability (I haven't read any of the books just watched the movies) of being Imprinted on someone. It's a blessing and a curse. It's like having to get dessert with all of the fat content in it. Yes, being Imprinted on someone kicks ass. Even the very definition of it is sweet.

       Before things get a too gay around here. This is what I feel for the girl. Since where here i'll be naming her uhmm (I seriously don't know) How about "Amy" because she looks a lot like Amy Adams. The title of this blog is the feeling sooo better get started on describing the feeling right? Not exactly. Just try watching Jacob and what he feels for Renesmee and Imagine it that Renesmee doesn't know Jacob exist. That's pretty much it.

A small clip from the Twilight saga to see just how sweet this Imprint stuff is...

       Having feelings for someone could be the start of something special at least that what  Romantic novel tells you but really it's just crap. Having feelings is like failing in an major exam in the midterms. You failed in the midterms then you get so eager for doing better in the final exams. Just like having feelings you caught it then your just ever so excited to get a move on. it's like having feelings for someone seems to be the bridge to love. But in my world having feelings for this girl is a CURSE. it's like a game that doesn't have a continue button or save option. This what happens

1.) 2005 I caught "feelings"

2.)2009 I made a Move

3.)Failed

4.)2012 I made a Move

5.) She noticed me and tells me she appreciates it BUT

6.)2013 It's like nothing happened.

7.) You know what's going to happen here.

SHE'S NOT INTERESTED DUMMY! Yes I can here you. ill be sharing in the next chapter what I call Projects  or "the moves" to show you just how much uninterested she is. All I can say now is that I'm starting to be an antagonist from what I've said in this chapter but oh wells lets just wait until the story develops into something awesome. ill leave you with this statement

"Love is not love until someone accepts it."

                                                                                                         *saw it in our steamer

When being In love is not good enough

Chapter 1:Just Married

                       

           Have you've gotten to watch this chick flick? It's all about two couple who got married at a very young age and had to overcome a disastrous honeymoon. If you haven't then watch the movie just try to catch it on Star Movies. Long story short this is where my story didn't began.

  
       My Story began in High School like every other stupid love story began mine was love at first sight maybe second but it's still pretty much the same. We were in our freshman year and I happen to saw her and Boom! Just like that I fell In-love for the very First time.

*To put things in perspective I'm what you call "el torpe" which is a medical condition that means inability to express feelings towards someone you really like due to low testosterone level.

And back to my story 4 years in high school and the only move I made on her was giving a bracelet which had her name on our senior year(Which was spelled wrong by the way and is really cheap) and I danced with her on our Senior prom. She was even the Prom queen and me being the guy whose usually at the background cheering on. Well that's the only thing I did. Soooooo if someone is reading my crappy blog you should ask why Just married? Nothing really even happened? Yeah your right. This first chapter is just my way of wasting you time and getting the hang of this blog thingy but just before you curse me forever just ask 

"Is Love enough to make something happen?"

*this is pretty much the main question were gonna talk about if you stay for my next chapters. so stay!